On June 14, 2013 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. It had not gone to other places in my body, and now I have completed chemo and mastectomy (followed by mastectomy on normal side). I have been able to work continuously, with the enormous and unending support of my patients, my staff and my coworkers. I continue to be humbled by the constant kindness provided to me by those I am supposed to be careing for, and by the many who have walked this path before me.
Saturday, August 17, 2013
I am back into having energy. It is great. Taste still screwed up, but I
can live with that. Carried books up and down the stairs yesterday,
and did fine. Chemo also does weird things to your smell. My child found this spray cologne somewhere in my stuff and it smells so bad. It
might smell bad ordinarily, I just cannot tell, but it smells really bad
now. And at 8, her quantitative measures of amount that is desirable
are questionable. I catch her in the mirror with puffs of droplets
landing on her hair, arms, even the dog. I try to love on her, but just
get nauseated. Now that I am sensitized, one molecule lifts my radar. I
hid it in the cabinet, but she found it. I think I will put it where
she would never look - in her shoes on living room floor, in her laundry
basket, with the healthy food in the cabinet. In the bathroom, I smell
water damage. Is it the old, or is it new? In the kitchen I smell
smoke. Is it my cheese toast on fire today or just yesterdays burn. But
then yesterday, I went into the operating rooms (after being out for a
while), and when I entered the orthopedic cluster (4 rooms where we do
most of our stuff), that familiar smell of the ortho operating rooms hit
me. I have never thought of that area as having its own smell, but it
did. And it was welcome, like home, and pleasant. It was great to be
back there.
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